From the archives

An old page from one of my notebooks, circa September of last year.

Transcript for legibility problems:

(top left, above the lines)
My only destiny is a world-class frack up--who hurts everyone she cares about. That was your mother's gift to you. You want to believe her because it means you're the problem, not the world. That you're a cancer that needs to be removed. You hear her voice every day and you want her to be right.
[Leoben's speech to Kara, repeated by the Oracle]

(top right)
ZERO IS THE NUMBER OF THE FOOL

(main body)
Absolutes do not exist in the physical universe.
The human mind conceptualizes in generalizations and absolutes in order to survive.
INTELLIGENCE IS HEURISTIC
IT DOES NOT PROVIDE ABSOLUTE ANSWERS
IT APPROACHES REALITY BUT DOES NOT REACH IT
Everything is dependent on frame of reference.
Everything is corrupted, falls, fails, dies.
Nothing lasts forever.
The only constant is change.

(right side)
NO
SALVATION
NO
GODS
NO
HOPE

(main body cont.)
LIFE IS CHANGE. STASIS IS DEATH.
We cannot stay where we are.
The RED QUEEN--we have to keep running just to stop from falling behind (and eventually we can't run anymore).
Trying to preserve your identity is damaging to yourself.

(right side cont.)
ONLY MAN

(main body cont.)
LIFE IS A DIALOGUE
an exchange of ideas
an interaction between agents according to the rules of a larger system
if any one agent holds power over the others, the system fails.
POWER IS IMMORAL
but is interaction possible without an exchange of power?
interaction is a willing exchange--giving up knowledge, accepting influence
power given freely may (must) be accepted freely?
generosity is not enough; healing is not enough; you have to be willing to accept generosity, to be healed
AN EXCHANGE INVOLVES TWO PARTIES BOTH GIVING AND TAKING
YOU CANNOT UNDERSTAND IF YOU DO NOT ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE UNDERSTOOD
YOU CANNOT BELIEVE IF YOU DO NOT ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE BELIEVED
YOU CANNOT HEAL IF YOU DO NOT ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE HEALED